Dear Readers,
Life it seems has a funny way of working things out. Sometimes I would like to believe that we can control our own destiny but other times I get this feeling that we don't. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life and some of them were alot of fun while I was at it, but not so much afterwards. I haven't always been the greatest friend to people, but I do try. I've learned I can't make everyone happy, and least of all myself. I'm always trying to make everyone happy long before me. And no some would say that is not fair to me, but It's who I am. I can't stand to have someone mad at me unless of course I did something to deserve it. and half the time I didn't even know I did it lol. Here lately I seem to be on someones shit list for whatever reason at the time. Seem to be really good at pissing people off and not even trying lol. no this is not really my friends i'm talking about it's mostly my family. I miss them alot, but there is a reason why you move the hell out! Now i'm on my own technically I have a husband and son, and it's my house my rules. but the house is lonley half the time. esp during deployment. I get to talk to my husband everyday, which is great but it cuts down on time I have to do things. He wants my undivided attention and I can't always give it to him. I try to explain that if he didn't get to call all the time, it would be different. I understand my husband in more ways than most people do, when they first meet him. He is not the easiest person to tolerate or get along with. For the most part me and him click. I couldn't imagine my life without him, even if he annoys me all the time. Mostly today, I spent alot of time cleaning and thinking. Thats what I do, I clean when I'm mad or stewing on something. Which is most days why my house is spotless lol. Today was a cleaning day, and I still haven't figured out anything. I think I need more bleach lol. Well it's thunderstorming and I might lose connection, so I'll cut this short. Don't look so much at whats wrong with life but more to what is right. The rest will fall into place.
CHAOS AND DISORDER, MY WORK IT DONE.
